a bad sat.. it wasn't suppose to be 1 but 3 things ruined my whole mood.. firstly... my father he scolded me for no reason.. wad can i do? stab him with knife? i cant do anything tt i wished to do... leave home.. i go where? cursed him.. if he dies wad m i? talk bac.. kena slapped? i cant do anything rite? nnt everything is under human rites... fate caused human rites to be nth!!! nth at all... 2nd thing.. at evening yuna sang the new version of xmas song n made me abit more happier... i pretended to be very happi n laugh lik hell n my dear sis ruined my whole faking mood.. y cant i jus pretend happi? mus everything be so dam real? cant i hav a faking mood if i wan? u jus wan to ruin my happi mood.. lastly i went to train.. as usual i died of maple's lagness.. can the gm sot out his thinking n make maple jus nt so dam lag? n nw xmas season maple keep dropping useless n obstructive stuffs tt makes me even more frustrated... wad can i do? n i died nt even 1 word of counsolation frm my frens.. plenty of them in my list who r on9... nt even 1 bothered bout consoling me.. die onli mar.. so wad? die then die lo? i requested some help but all jus treat my words blankly.. ok fine i m on myself i dun need any of their help.. since i m such a dam useless person.. i continue to be 1? so wad... continue of their reaction...
i died.. ppl in buddy list.. poured salt on my wound? some say i long time nvr die le... wan suan me tt i m useless? die then die la... treat as making $$ lo... then hr kept complaining bout her jumping quest... ok i cannot blame her nt her fault mar.. she wan scold wadeva she wans also can..
a fren told me i've changed.. i turned colder towards him? i admit i've changed.. i've change to be a problematic person tt havs nth but trouble in my mind... u told me i m cold towards u.. i ammended, i smsed to u.. talk to u in maple.. but wad did i gt in the end? a no reply sms? a no reply ans? so wad can u blame me for? blame tt i m crazy.. this is all u can blame me for... i tried to stay happi but i was nvr ever happi...