nw its 5.41am in the morn..lata needa go out early..so wnent blogging at this hr..ytd..at 8.05pm,my grandpa left us peacefully..everything happened so suddenly..but was predicted. but no use being sad bout it, no dead would come bac alive..so we jus had to cherish wad we had nw. no use crying..i blive tt ah gong wun wan us to be sad for him. probably leaving us isn't a bad thing.. jus had to face it..its all prestined...at least,by leaving us earlier..he doesn't need to be suffering frm illnesses..illnesses tt had been surrounding him will all go frm ytd onwards..he can live happily at the other side of th world...watching us as we grow.. i admit, i wasn't a gd grand daughter.. i m a useless 1.. if u asked me wad can i tell u frm my ah gong, i can onli say, he smokes,drinks.. i dun even know his name, everything thing bout him is strange to me.. although since young i lived under him n ah ma till i was p1 & moved out..i didn't talked to him much..he was either outside loitering till late nite..n plus i wasn't v talkative at tt time.. so the chance we could talk is even lesser.. after moving away..we met even lesser than b4..frm a couple of times a mth to onli once in a yr..last yr i didn't even saw him! haiz.. actually his death was predicted half a mth ago..but he strived n held his last breath till ytd..we shld be glad tt he used up his every last breath b4 leaving us..& leaving without any regrets.. he had suffered for the past yrs.. n nw its time for his to put down all those burdens n leave happily.. we shld be happi =] i dun think he would wish us to be sad ba.. but ytd.. i still cried.. i felt so useless tt when i onli dropped a tear after knewing this.. nt even a single more.. but i begin to realise.. being happi with wad is for us is v impt..we jus hav to life it no matter wad.. but late at nite i still cried.. but nw its all over...
ah gong rest in peace ba.. may the peace of lord be always with u (=
signing off as shiyi aka appledew
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